Lukewarm and silky, the water kissed my cheeks,
Brushed the sleep from my eyes, lifted the corners of my lips.
A step out, a frozen gasp, the bitter chills.
Old insecurity seeps out, new insecurity seeps in.
The water dries up, the pressure of heat
Pressing onto my shoulders, I bend,
I break. Piece myself together, become the puzzle,
Fragmented but whole. Sweet dismemberment, tender deceit.
Crawl back – crawl back to the pool,
A toe first, then a leg. Submerged, the realization:
It was all in your mind, the heat a passing dalliance.
The water must be/it must be/it has to be.